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#Cliche old habits die hard crack

But in my head, what I heard was the voices of all the people who refused to believe I was ill because I didn’t look the part.įriends, boyfriends, colleagues, bosses, clients, even doctors and nurses-“You’re exaggerating. He was genuinely nice when he told me I don’t look sick. Now, just as an FYI, my client is anything but an A-hole.

This is what I said to myself after 36+ hours of not sleeping due to constant pain and restlessness. My client told me this morning that I didn’t look sick at all, so how could I push the deadline to next week?” There are so many people out there who are actually ill. You may be familiar with these stages, although I wholeheartedly hope you only know them in theory. Slowing down = going through the same five stages as griefįor someone who finds her escape, her relief, and her self-esteem in work, being forced to slow down is a messy sprint through the same five stages as grief.

Obviously, when your chronic illness blesses you with horrible flare-ups on a regular basis, what do you do? That’s right-WORK! What, you thought “slow down?” Yeah, here’s the thing with that… 3. One evening I’m taking a long walk before sunset, the next evening I might be having such a bad migraine that I can’t stand the tiniest shred of light.

#Cliche old habits die hard crack

One day I’m exercising for an hour, the next day, I might be cleaning the kitchen counter and hear the distinctive crack in my wrist that puts in me a brace for a week.

One morning I’m getting out of bed and jumping in the shower, the next morning I might be rolling out of bed and crawling to the bathroom.

I can’t speak for everyone, but here’s how my life with EDS looks like on average: And there are no two identical cases of Ehlers-Danlos, so you have no idea how it might evolve. You see, Ehlers-Danlos is a genetic condition that tells your body to produce faulty collagen, which just happens to be the “building block” of pretty much every tissue in your body. There’s an old romantic song called “Your body is a Wonderland.” Well, when you have Ehlers-Danlos syndrome, the song becomes “Your body is Jurassic Park” and you never know when the T-rex and the velociraptors escape their cages. Workaholism + chronic illness = big bad burnouts.

Problems in your personal life? Work so much that you don’t have one anymore! Don’t feel comfortable at social events? Set deadlines for every Sunday night! Hate being sick and refuse to acknowledge your chronic illness? Book even more work so you can’t take any sick days! Which leads me to… 2. It requires such constant focus that it doesn’t leave any room for overthinking all the other things. Work + work + more work = escape from reality.įor a tiny ball of anxiety such as myself, writing words for a living has always been my escape. On a scale from one to crying-at-the-end-of-Titanic, how sad is it that I consider this to be my greatest achievement over the past few years? Wait… before you answer that question, there are three big important equations you need to know: 1. No documents with unfinished copy open on my laptop. This dialogue may have only happened in my head as I was basking in the sun outside a coffee shop, but the facts are true.įor the first time in eight years, I took one week off work. Today I’m getting my one-week work-free chip” (choir of other burnt-out, vitamin D-deprived workaholics constantly adding stuff to their to-do list) “Hi, I’m Valentina, and I’m a workaholic.